Happy Birthday Gar

One year ago...

On his birthday last year Gar wanted a Rubiks Cube cake. So I tried my hardest to replicate the Rubiks Cube :)

Last Halloween Gar and I carved pumpkins together...it was a lot of fun! :)

This was taken in New Hampshire last October. It is definately a typical Gar picture :) Oh how i miss his funny antics!

Well today would have been gar's 23rd birthday. Today many, many memories flood back of great times we shared together. He loved this time of year. He loved Halloween and always thought he was lucky to have Halloween and his birthday so close together. He had told me last year, that this year for halloween, he wanted to find a big box and paint it like a Rubiks cube...if that doesn't sound like Gar then I don't know what does! :) It was also about this time last year that he, Sara and I all went camping in New Hampshire. What a fun time we had. He loved camping and the fall foliage was amazing. Even though we were iceicles when we woke up, I guess camping in october in New Hampshire wasn't the warmest idea! Another great memory was when gar insisted that we carved pumpkins around Halloween time last year. It was alot of fun, even though Gar's looked 10X better than mine! haha!

It is comforting to know that Gar is happy now, afterall that is all I ever wanted for him. He had a wonderful heart. I was lucky to have known gar, lucky to have felt his love, lucky to have spent many fun times together. I will never forget him and all he taught and gave me. Today on his birthday I remember him just as much as any other day. There isn't a day that goes by when I don't think about him and miss his smile, his laugh, his jokes and hearing about his dreams. Such dreams as driving an Audi, going into space, having a family of his own. I will always hold Gar deep in my heart, on his birthday, and every other day of the year. I love you Gar!

Happy Birthday!!!

Dear past two months,

Gar and I on a fun snow day :)-- Gar attempted to teach me to drive "better" in the snow (er...ice)


Christmas Day 2007-- Gar insisted that my mom get us matching Boston Red Sox hats :)

These past two months have been extremely difficult. At times I sat in disbelief wondering if he was really gone, wondering if I would really not be able to talk to him again. But reality has its harsh bite and I remember, it's true. Two months ago today my best friend went to a better place. The time since he past hasn't been easy. Sure, I take comfort in the small feelings of his presence. I have had dreams with him in them, I have visited my Mimi and felt him there. But it does not take away the broken heart I am learning to mend. This was the first time in my life I have had a legitimate "broken heart." My mom says she felt the same way when Mimi passed. There is no other way to explain it other than you feel like your heart has been shattered. This world isn't fair, there are rough spots, and the world is far from perfect. Beyond that God does send comforting feelings. I know Gar is in a better place. But that will never take away how much I miss the guy. That will never take away my yearning for one more conversation, one more "i love you," one more hug, or one more laugh. If there is one way I could sum up these past two months it would be that "time does heal even the deepest wounds." I know I will get through this, sure there were times when I wonder why I was given this trial and I wish I didn't have to go through these deep, painful feelings. I do know, though, that this will only make me a stronger person. Eventually I will be able to let go of these intense emotions that come with loosing someone so close to me and be able to live in the comfort of his spirit until I can see him and be with him again.

I love you Gar and you will forever live on in my heart.
xoxo

Garrison Brent Childs

October 28th 1985- July 2nd 2008

On July 2nd I lost one of my best friends. As many may already know Gar passed away peacefully at his home in Utah. He and I have been best friends for quite some time and we dated for just under two years. Gar had a wonderfully large heart and he truely taught me the meaning of unconditonal love.

He battled a long, hard fight with Bi-polar disorder and now he is free from all of the confines of that horrible mental illness. Even with all the ups and downs he faced he had a wonderful smile and laugh that could light up the room.

Gar was the type of person that wanted to help everyone. He always put others before his self and took time to show he cared. I will never forget the amazing times we had whether we were camping in New Hampshire or going to Troys (our favorite resturant) we always had a fun time. I will never forget these memories and I will forever be thankful for all he taught me.

In the time I knew him we became extremely close and no one will ever be able to fill the void he left but I luckily feel peace knowing he is in a much better place and is no longer suffering.

Because of the graciousness of his wonderful family my mom and I were able to fly out for the viewing and funeral. Both of which brought both closure and peace. A part of my heart is now in Heaven and I find peace in the fact that one day we will meet again.

I love you garrison!

Gars Birthday

The first few posts are going to be on the random side...untill I get all caught up... picture wise!

I'll start off with a few from Gar's birthday!

Gar and the Rubik's cake I made him.











Look at all those presents!!!