Beginnings.

This post has been a long time coming. 

Quite honestly, I would have loved to post this earlier but given the circumstances regarding my friends mom (who is doing better, by the way! Thanks for those who lifted her up in prayer!) and the wonderful trip I just got home from I just simply have not had time.

So here goes nothing. Last year, around this exact time, my family and I were dealing with some pretty tough things. Dad was in the hospital and he was down right sick. I was Sad. Confused. Hopeful. Worried. Scared and Blessed all at the same time. But, at that point in my life I was unable to sit down and determine what I goals I wanted to pursue in 2009. Don’t get me wrong, no one ever really sticks with their “new years resolutions” but I hadn’t even put thought into them. My mind was swirling with creatine levels, WBC counts and the like all while still attending school full-time.

It wasn’t as though I didn’t accomplish anything. I grew immensely in this past year, I was forced to. This year I want to make goals and try my hardest to stick to them. And, this time I want to do it for myself.

There are different aspects of myself that are sub-par in my opinion. I know we are all a “work-in-progress” but there are areas within my life that I really want to focus on. We’ll call them my trouble spots.

Trouble spot #1: Praying. I want to pray more. I always turn to God when the going gets tough but not as much when things are just going at their everyday pace. That is something that I know needs to change. I know that I feel less anxious and more peaceful when I pray, so that is something that I will be doing more of in 2010. That brings me to…

Trouble spot #2: Anxiety. I have made great strides in the past year to grabbing a hold of my anxiety issue. I now have a fantastic counselor and see her weekly (sometimes bi-weekly). She has really helped me grab hold of my anxiety and learn why I worry about what I worry about and how to stop all the unnecessary thoughts. This year, I want to work towards a healthy anxiety level. As I have learned, anxiety is essential to life, but it is all in moderation.

Trouble spot #3: Exercise. This year I am going to exercise consistently. Consistency is key for me. I love working out; I love how I feel when I am working out and I love how I feel after I work out. Its an instant self-confidence booster for me. But, as soon as I get out of my pattern it’s all down hill. I need to get into the groove and stay in that groove. no.matter.what.

Trouble spot # 4. Food. Yes, food is tricky. We need it to live, yet you have too much and you pack on the pounds. Believe me, I know first hand. I don’t want to just diet. I want to change my eating habits. I’m talking an entire overhaul. Less of the refined stuff. The yucky white stuff: white flour and white sugar. Less of the processed foods. Back to the natural stuff. The naturally good stuff. I know how unhealthy fast food and processed food is, so why eat it!? This is something I will strive for throughout the year. I’m going to do it in steps…month by month. I will start by eliminating things just for a month. For instance: the first month I will eliminate all diet soda (I only drink diet anyways) and so on. Then if for that month I really truly, feel better without the said item I’ll include eliminating it with the next thing. I still don’t have my list up but I know a few that will be included: white sugar/flour, fast food, fried food etc. Clear as mud? Well I will be using this trusty little blog to keep me on target so keep posted and maybe, just maybe it will make more sense ;)

That just about wraps up my new year’s goals. I really hope to use my blog to help me stay accountable in attaining these goals. I am looking forward to the challenge but I am also looking forward to the rewards that will be in store once I reach my goals.

I hope you all have fantastic goals in mind too. The New Year brings about new beginnings, and let’s face it…

...those are never a bad thing.